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Blergh. I can't wait till Sunday - why, you ask? I have a French final on Saturday
and I've done no revision for it. Oh joy. I can't force myself to do it, sigh.
Plus somebody read a poem of mine from a while back, completely
mis-interpreted it and then proceeded to ask me weird things...


In other news (not that anyone, anywhere, ever aside from myself will
even be reading this), I loved the movie Clue and have seen it 2 and
a half times this week *nods*.

I'm going to go find an internet community to join or make
some graphics before I let myself wade any further
into this unhelpful hermit mode that my social skills seem
to be stuck on. Sigh. Loseby. Sorry - inside joke.
Niz xxx
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Current Mood: Huh?
 
 
Veganiz
07 May 2009 @ 05:39 pm
So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie!

MY MOVIE SOUNDTRACK...

Opening Credits:
Goad Moaning, There Has Been Another Cick Up - Officer Crabtree
('Allo ' Allo clip)


Waking Up:
Jumpin' Jumpin' - Destiny's Child


First Day At School:
She's The Blade - Sugarcult {haha, good or bad?}


Falling In Love:
Closer To You - Josef Hedinger

Losing Virginity:
Take My Breath Away - Berlin {haha}

Breaking Up:
Nothing Better - The Postal Service {awesome & fitting song}

Prom:
Mohabbatein Theme Song {lol :)}


Life:
Lifestyles Of The Rich & The Famous - Good Charlotte


Mental Breakdown:
My Everything - Goldfinger


Driving:
High School Never Ends - Bowling For Soup


FlashBaCK:
Once Upon A December - Anastasia


Getting Back Together:
Jolene - Dolly Parton {haha not a good sign}


Wedding:
I'll Be There for You - The Rembrandts (The Friend's them tune, yes yes?) {hm}

Birth of Child:
Don't Wanna Miss A thing - Aerosmith


Final Battle:
Miss Invisible - Marie Digby


Death Scene:
My Dad Is Rich - Draco And The Malfoys {pffft}


Funeral Song:
Spokesman - Golfinger {heh}

End Credits:
Coca Cola Song (the choral version of their Xmas ad) {Surely the funeral song and end credits would be the same lol...ah well}
 
 
Veganiz
07 May 2009 @ 05:38 pm
[LONG. That is al....most all.]


When was the last time you saw someone attractive?
Today when I was looking at photos of my Wifey and I as grooms *nods*.
Boy those groom hats sure are shmexy. Lmao.
Er, IRL though? Weds in town heh.

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
Assuming Facebook doesn't count (lol) then...nope. (Lorry)

What do you hear right now?
Kettle boiling, last episode of scrubs loading (/beginning playing), cutlery, typing.

What did you do today?
So far? Missed my Wifey! Decided I have to write in my autobio some more later
(I will FINALLY start writing in the 'Weird Stuff' part becuase although there are
way too many events/happenings for that section...it has to be done) // opened
the package for my Tokio Hotel guitar pick phone charm & am wearing the black
guitar pick necklace. Ultimate yayness.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Oh crap, I know there's stuff I'm meant to be doing, I just can't remember
any of it O_o. Also, prepare for return to UEA.

Who was the last girl you talked to?
Online: Rajal. In real life... Tanya, my wife.

Do you believe in forever?
Time is a human concept...but I guess, yes.

Do you say sorry first?
Usually....depends...

When were you last outside?
Yesterday, though am going out today (wfsc...oh how cool...cough, wheeze)

FACT: About the person you fell hardest for?
He's taller than me. And I know that's kinda random but if you know the story
or the details, it makes sense. *shrug*

WHAT: Happened at 9:00 am today?
Hrm. I was asleep, mehthinks. Or just generally lazing in bed.

WHAT'S: Your current problem?
Not seeing my Wifey! Lol I'unno. Or...not being ble to find out more
about The Bull Ring / Man With The Boar... and oh, a pigeon
just flew into our kitchen window (3rd one in 2 weeks...)

SOMETHING: You say when you are mad?
GAH. Lol perhaps Marko? Nope lol. Occasionally I will resort to
muttering 'stfu'.

HAVE YOU MADE: A mistake this past week?
Not that I know of, nothing hugely important.
A couple people got mad at me for saying things
*they* thought of as putting them down when
I honestly didn't mean them to....but no.

WHEN WAS: The last time you really laughed?
Yesterday, always end up in fits of laughter with Teej
or random friends in general :). Time before that was
with Lorry, discussing our kidnap Jim Carrey plan haha.

Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
lol...I'd be 23. That'd be odd. But no, I don't think so.

Do you hate being alone?
No. I find being alone quite peaceful. Sometimes it's a burden, naturally
everyone wants company occasionally and not to be a total recluse but
I oft like the feeling of a gentle and solitary repose. *has been reading
too much*

Did you ever slam a door on someone?
Ofc. Well, not on them, just with them present.

How was the beginning of this year for you?
I can't even remember where I was. Oh wait. Conga down
the street (no hail this year). Lol, the first few months
have been alright. One or two minor surprising events
but the usual twists of life. Nothing major...not now.

How do you think the year will end for you?
I think it'll be rather interesting.

Where is the person you hate the most?
I don't 'do' hate... I dislike a few traits etc.
of people but I don't hate...
having said that, KitKat & his friends have
been notably absent recently.

Did you have a good day yesterday?
A most brilliant day....I could enthuse about it for hours.
I won't, just to save you reading it all.

When was the last time you were depressed?
I was rather sad a while ago but I haven't
been depressed in a long, long time.

Did you go out or stay in last night?
Stayed in scowling at a magazine XD.
I don't like them in general but heh, there
was a bit of a carrot-on-a-stick situation.
I realised this makes no sense so I'll stop now.

Would you care if you saw the person you like kiss someone else?
A little but tbh I think I'd just shrug and continue along.
TRUNDLE. :D

Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
Lol I think so :D.

Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
Classify 'relationship' 'cause technically, friendship=relationship.
Lol but no, not...officially. Although I s'pose you could say I am.
That depends on a lot though.

What are you thinking about right now?
Electromagnetism, juiced oranges, salt cleansing crystals, Tokio
Hotel and Man With The Boar.

Does your crush like you back?
According to him. *shrugs*

Something you do a lot?
Breathe.

// Read, search, ponder, smile

Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Well now. Two different answers for those...
but the last, I believe (more than minor annoyance)
was...an old colleague.

How many things are you really thinking about right now?
Life, so-called Akashic records, Man With The Boar,
Ed Cosher/Cosure/whatever, past lives, wohbese,
We Three Trees <3 (Wifey Hale - Tanya & Lorry),
uni, uni friends, writing in my autobiography,
weird things/events... and gold.

Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today?
Not so far.

Have you held hands with anyone today?
Nope.

Any plans for tomorrow?
Possibly.....we shall see if they come to fruition.

Have you ever been called heartless?
Wow. No. I think anyone that said that would
be mistaken because sometimes I do things
that seem rather abrupt or fickle but I do
think things through..... random insight
into my mind, eh?

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
I don't really want to punch anyone in their faces.
I would like to "give people a piece of my mind" though
(having said that, I think there are rather few pieces left!)

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
(omg 13.23) Sigh. No. Slightly. I don't know.

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
Yep, seule avec mes pensées (alone with my thoughts).

Think of the person who has hurt you the most in the past year, who is it?
Probably myself, what with the pondering and the Gemini duality.
(lol if you believe in such stuff.....)

How many pictures are currently stored in your digital camera?
Oh, none, I delete them after I upload them and I haven't taken
any since the last time. Wait, that's a lie...I didn't delete the
last 3, I think. So... 3.

Did anything surprising happen today?
Yes. I learnt about the bull ring. OH and the phone charm.

If you ended up in jail, who would be most likely to end up in there with you?
Tanya. Or... or... well. Hah. Not Orwell. Nvm.

Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone?
I...maybe once or twice, yes. I also often FORGET I am
texting or put my phone down etc...

Whens the last time you drove a car?
Months and months ago. I guess I should eventually
do my test, when it bothers me enough to do it.

Left your house without your parents knowing?
Not recently. Was seriously contemplating it .. oh, not last night
but the night before... for a mid-night walk (not midnight, rather
mid - night) but I decided not to...

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Turned around lots. Thought. Gave up on fighting sleep :P.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with J or M?
Oh how delightfully ironic (to me). Yes.

Can you easily tell if someone is fake?
Often...occasionally I'll delude myself. Lol.

Are you falling for someone?
Nope.

Where's the person that you fell the hardest for?
In existence, still, I think.

Could you last in a relationship for over a year?
Yes. The right relationship / a good relationship.
Otherwise I'd be outta there pretty fast.
Though...not as fast as possible.
I mull things over. Like mead. Ok, not like mead.
XD.

Last car you were in that belonged to the opposite sex:
Possibly my brother's? Hm.

Does the person who hurt you most know how much they hurt you?
Me? Oh yes, I do. If you mean someone who isn't
me then no, he doesn't remember and I don't
expect him to though frankly, I did indirectly
die from it. (long story) <----This means I'm sayin' nothin'.

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
Not from this life. Unless...no.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
Yep.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Oh. Uh. Tanya, apparently.

Anyone you're giving up on?
I have this little thing where I don't
give up on people entirely. Asset
or problem, you decide.

What were you doing at 10:30 last night?
Facebook, I guess, photos with Mr Hew Ard.
(the wife)

What mood are you in right now?
Robotic. My brain can't handle the length of this quiz :P.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
No.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
Perhaps. I can't really tell anymore.
Maybe the little robin in my garden that visits me
everday has some light to shed.

How long have you been on the computer?
Oh since this morning.
(Alé's answer was awesome:
Forever. And I've no intention of stopping now.)

Are you nice to everyone?
Usually unless from the moment I meet
you I have a bad impression of/ feeling
about you - although even then, though
something will inevitably happen to prove
this, I'll still ATTEMPT to be nice. So...ish.

Aside from waking up, what was the first thing you did this morning?
Got showered & dressed / drank freshly squeezed orange juice.

Are you happy?
Is happiness relative? Ok, that was a question and not
really a good answer. Yes, yes I think I am on the whole,
or could be regarded as, happy.

Your #1 walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Undoubtedly. I can stalk people for lifetimes y'know.
No, seriously. I can. And have. And will.
Though like Alé says, sometimes you have to let go.

What phone company do you use?
O2.

What type of phone do you have?
Samsung E900.

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
Yes. Depends on the circumstances such as whether
they hurt me knowingly, what their intent was at the
present moment...etc.

What is more important, happiness or trust?
I can't ascertain in which situation I could isolate
these two without them sharing something. Sorry,
heh, I just really had an itch to use that word.
So...in conclusion...I'm unsure.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Oh. That all depends.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
Well, all my friends. But most of all my wife. And...
and TicTac. And...oh, well, the 2 missing from the bull ring.
Not that this will make sense to you peoples.
*changes answer*: my friends - but mainly my wife,
every time without fail even when the only thing
I want to do is be alone forever. Especially then.

Have you made any new regrets this year?
Why make time for regret?

How do you feel right now?
With one of my senses. Lol. Actually, alright.
Relatively calm.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I won't rule it out but I doubt it.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
No - but in a way, because I'm not, yes, very.
Oh dear. Confusing answers much? :P Yes.

What were you doing at 7:00 am?
Sleeping. Dreaming. Breathing.

When was the last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
When someone asked me if something was wrong
(no, it wasn't).

How do you feel about your hair right now?
*shrugs* it's alright. Will get it cut sometime
after I return from the U of EA.

Have you ever had someone sing to you?
A couple times, lol. The most hilarious
being when the drunken lead of the band
Kalena dedicated a song to 3 of us.

Where were you at midnight last night?
In the comp room, on Facebook.

Do you ever wonder sometimes what the world would be like without you?
Yes and then I realise to understand that I'd have to assess
who/what I am and considering I believe everything is linked
(quantum physics, peoples) then...oh, wait... the answer to
this question is simply yes.

How's your heart lately?
Healthy I hope! Lol. In response to the
metaphor for which this question stands:
fine, thanks.

Last awkward moment?
Well I wouldn't actually have defined it as awakard
for me but by the reactions of the others involved,
it was for them. Um. Couple weeks ago.

When you were in elementary school, did you change best friends a lot?
Nope.

Last beverage you had?
Freshly squeezed (no, really) orange juice*.
*freshly squeezed = not from a *adjective* carton.

What's so special about what you're wearing?
My socks are bright. My jeans are bland.
For once I'm not wearing my rings or bracelets.
The necklaces? One is some trinity-like symbol,
one's a TH guitar pick one... the earrings? Multi-
coloured but nothing entirely special.
----
The tshirt? German.
"Nach all den Jahren bin Ich fats perfekt". <3


Ever felt like you're not good enough?
Oh yes. Then I think it's
a) stupid to compare and
b) pointless to assume.
... sometimes.

Do you miss anyone?
Sure.

Do you dance in the car?
Have been known to.

Who's the last person you got in a yelling fight with?
Oh...maybe my brother.

Anyone in the military in your family?
Nope. As much as I commend people's bravery and so on,
I don't like the idea of war.

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
Yes, in Kenya and Monte Carlo. Oh. Perhaps India
too. It's nice.

Anything you would change about your life right now?
A couple of details.

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Yesterday :).

Do you think two people can last forever?
LOL I just thought about this literally, rofl.
*calms down* heh. Ok. Um. Yes. Well.
For at least a lifetime, lol.

Anyone jealous of you or anything you have?
Hah I doubt it.

Have you held hands with somebody in the past 7 days?
I don't think so.

Would you and the last person you kissed make a good-looking baby?
Who knows?

Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Yep... (lol actually someone did just yesterday)

Who called you first this morning?
Nobody. Well, not on the phone. Otherwise it was my dad
telling me to drink the OJ.

Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
Well you said 'ever' so...yes. Not that I recall it so well.

Are you wasting your time on someone?
Who knows?

Last time you cried?
Oh Tanya almost made me cry and she was only talking
about the colour red, jebus. Lol. :)

How many funerals have you been to in your life time?
Oh. My grandfather's when I was barely a few months
old... Although I know other people who've died,
I haven't been to any of the funerals save my gran's.

Do you care if people hate you?
Not so much, unless anyone I really cared for hated me.

Has a song ever made you cry?
Yes, usually when I'm in the mood to cry anyway. Heh.

Does anyone disgust you?
Traits of people, yes.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
Lol. Um. Actually, yes O_o.

Where is the person you want to kiss right now?
Dead for all I know. Or...somewhere.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Oh totally, they rule :D.




So ja. Had fun wasting time reading 'bout me?
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Current Mood: calm
 
 
Veganiz
12 March 2009 @ 11:30 am
So, I love how I always bullet point random things... here goes:

* Again, got a text from someone I hadn't spoken to in a couple of months... and it was extremely, extremely unexpected. Good - but surprising.
* I'm helping backstage in the French play (opening night was yesterday) and it's really fun, everyone's always hyper.
* People are sharing things with me, which is nice :).
* On the work front, got a mini-essay thing due today but because of the play, have an extension. Luckily. Next week have an oral test - eep- and the week after, a 5 person presentation on a very boring French book / film.
* I watched the worst film ever. Well, it's definitely in my list of 5 all-time-low films...  'Surveillance' (on IMDB it's the one with 2008 as the date though it was made in 2007 and not shown till now? I'unno).

* My sister's coming to visit this weekend with my 'other sister', my brother and my brother's friend. So it'll be cool to see them.
* I keep realising, sometimes, how naive I am. Still. Lol.
* I made about a million Ace Ventura icons  - see my devart account (http://uncopyrightedvinegar.deviantart.com)
* I dolled! For my best friend Tanya's birthday, who I'm  "marrying" in April when I go back to my hometown for a month's holiday.

More later, maybe...
Niz xxx
 
 
Current Location: Flat
Current Mood: awake
 
 
Veganiz
08 February 2009 @ 12:02 am
Howdy. Had a really crazy time recently... the past 2 days, I guess.

Friday

* Text from person I haven't seen in 2.5 years about something so random I didn't know how to reply :/. I did eventually but got no reply back.
* Viewing an amazing 5 bedroom, 5 bathroom house for next year with 4 cool friends.
* Random flirting.
* Text from my ex which I also didn't know how to respond to without being mean.
* Seeing two rabbits doing a mating-dance type thing in a carpark.
* Having interesting chats about people's issues.
* Talking (generally) about someone I hadn't seen in a while and them being in a group in front of us.
* Seeing someone half-way across the crossing and standing on it talking in the middle of the night until a car appeared.
* Printing old pictures of friends :).
* Watching TV and movies almost non-stop for 12 hours... The Nutty Professor, Hannibal, The History Boys, House, Fawlty Towers.
* Cheering someone up.


Saturday

* Wandering into a kitchen at around 8am, not having slept, to talk -& watching the sunrise.
* Walking too early to the closest store which was closed.
* Falling asleep at 11, setting my alarm for 4 and then getting woken up by a text just before 4.
* Finding out an awesome friend did want to sign the contract for the amazing house...so we can live together next year.
* Justifying my trust in someone else.
* Arranging a meeting with the person letting the house.
* Waiting for a taxi with 3 others there...then taking two separare ones. Signing the rent contracts.
* Given receipt and guarantor form to post off and get posted back.
* Catching the bus to the station, walking to the cinema.
* Watching  "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button" and laughing through it.
* Getting home with everyone else tired, eating vegan chocolate spread sandwiches and journal-ing.

It really does feel like the last two days have lasted at least a week.
I'm glad everything seems to be going well.
I thinkI should go to sleep now and then make a list of things to-do... :P
Night!
Niz xxx

 
 
Current Location: Flat
Current Mood: pleased
 
 
Veganiz
02 February 2009 @ 06:19 pm
Hi!
Haven't posted to my LJ in quiiite a while. 3 months, actually.

As you can see from the post below,
I did NaNoWriMo (completed it!) and won :D. Woo.
That feeling is immense.
I haven't finished or edited my story as of yet... but ah well. :P

I've been updating a lot on my deviant art account
(http://uncopyrightedvinegar.deviantart.com/) and
been making a vlog which I'm adding to youtube (username: nizdolls).

I need to update my site... I just re-found my graphics tablet
pen, yay. Hopefully I will doll a little more.
I haven't since Christmas but here is a small gift
for you to adopt (with a link back to veganiz.com):

The base is by libby.buggative.net


Other randomness:

*Got a text today from someone I haven't spoken to in a while. Was weird.
*23 still stalks me.
*Tomorrow I'm waking up early to get a 7.45 am taxi to go and help out at a school languages day. Fun.


Hope you've had a fab new year...
no-one reads this thing anyway ;).
Niz xxx

 
 
Current Mood: happy
 
 
Veganiz
04 November 2008 @ 09:48 pm
So...kind of by accident, I'm hoping to do NaNoWriMo this year.

"What is it?" you ask. It is November...or, in other words, National Novel Writing Month (a.k.a. NaBloPoMo - National Blog Posting Month). My friend was going to enter it and somehow all this fiery motivation inspired me and I decided that maybe I could write a bit by fleshing out one of my characters, Kiseki, from a role play I had with my friends. So far, I have 3,000 words. Technically I should have around 6,500ish.

I signed up on the NaNoWriMo website. Considering going to a write-a-thon tomorrow night at 6 in the Student pub. At the same time (same place) is a sign language practice meeting, which I'm unsure about going to - haven't been to any yet but I need to. Might just turn up at BSL meeting and then skip over to the NaNoWriMo one... hm.

I'll ask my friend who's doing it if she's going too :D. She's mad, she has been auditioning for plays and all sorts.University work is annoying.

Have two doll contests on vote...VOTE FOR PEOPLE'S CHOICE please (http://smirk.nstars.org/voting-f17).
I will have to make awards for those soon too.


Niz xxx
 


 
 
Current Location: uni room
Current Mood: novelist...y
Current Music: Saying Goodbye - Sugarcult
 
 
Veganiz
24 October 2008 @ 05:19 pm
Howdy! I'm at home for once, yay!
I have brought The Cup with me...
it's basically my present to my friend for her 19th birthday,
it has a Facebook profile and everything :D. Add it. Cough. Lol.
It's met her parents and now it has met mine! :D


I'm back in my town today, which is cool. I went to my
old school and had a nice chat with my old teachers.
Grr at my old French teacher who told me my coursework
let me down, even though SHE was the one who told me
to be really creative with it. Sigh, head-desk.
She was the only languages teacher I knew in school!
My German teacher was on the Germany trip
and Mrs L was on the plane to visit her daughter! Sheesh.

Anywaaay, I also met the German assistant, Brian. Stayed
in his lesson with my friends Laurie and Shital and watched
about 10 minutes of a Germany spoof movie about time-travelling
Darth Vader, the Wild West etc... Weird! :D.

Tomorrow I will be raking leaves in the morning with my family,
headdesk XD. Then I might see a few cousins or something
and HOPEFULLY will meet up with my best friends, yaaaaay :D.

Should be fun. Fate interrupted my plan to buy junk food today -
at Tesco there was no vegan ice-cream today, the 99p store
had a huge queue and I couldn't decide what I wanted. Hehe.

Have started reading a French book, Le Grand Secret by someone-or
-the-other Barjavel.... it's pretty good actually. I am making notes as I
go along because otherwise I'll forget what happened in it O_o. And I
have to write something about it at some point.

University life is good, I have some mad friends...the place is nice,
my flatmates are a little odd but it's all good. My friend (LJ: carina-ns)
chats to me regularly which is fun-some :).

Well, bye for now! I hope this driver I downloaded lets my graphics
tablet work with my pc. *Crosses fingers* Of course, if I can doll again,
I might not actually get any work done. Oh well. Oh and I've watched about
20 hours of 'Allo 'Allo and half-stalked a Herr Flick look-a-like who goes
to my university. Fun.

Niz xxx
 
 
Current Location: HOME!
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: -
 
 
Veganiz
29 September 2008 @ 10:17 pm
I think I liked drowning better.

In fact, drowning beats this crap thumbs down.
At least it was only once.


"Always". Ffs.


Niz xxx
 
 
Current Mood: stressed
 
 
Veganiz
18 August 2008 @ 06:55 pm
Random bullet-point entry again :D.
Expect it not to flow lol.

*Turkey on Friday = yay.
*New laptop = yay.
*Broken phone = nay :(
*Using an old Nokia with a cracked screen - okay, at least it's durable
*Hospital visits = nay
*No wireless yet = nay
Staples = nay, they damage my nailvarnish...ah well, shows I do work XD
*Thorpe park / rollercoasters = nay, I get NO thrill, not even a stomach sensation :(
*Stomach sensations from other stuff like fun randomness = yay
*Uni = yay, nay XD  fun but will be odd hehe...plus I remember noooo French :/
*my iron =sucks, random marks


Until spater (argh accents on a laptop?),
Niz xxx
 
 
Veganiz
25 July 2008 @ 08:58 pm
Ok, so the phrase "died and gone to heaven" doesn't really appear in my every day speech...

but I did just ring up my best friend, (and left a voicemail) saying "PERSUADE ME that I'm not in a parallel universe!"

Because seriously...things are happening. Crazy.

I read a random chapter of the 11th insight (The Celestine Prophecy) last night...was
totally awesome XD. Somehow I almost typed that IN CAPS three times O_o.

Er... am I rambling/ranting/raving like a loonatic?

*facepalm* I'm still going crazy because of ...crazy energy-ness.

MERKWÜRDIG!

*almosy hyperventilating*

I refuse to acknowledge my problems XD.
Bwahaha.
I'm just going to stop now O_o.
It's not like anyone reads this anyway XD.
Niz xxx
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Everdream ~ Nightwish
 
 
Veganiz
23 July 2008 @ 10:50 pm
1) I'm going mad (in a good way).
2) I feel amazing.
3) Yay <3.
4) My Internet is messing up.
5) Spontaneity's good.
6) URGH stupid world and system and logic and...assuming everyone's the same.
7) Indigo / crystal children = awesome.
8) My purple plate, although on a diff chain, during the night managed to get onto the original
necklace chain it was on....HOW?
9) *headdesk*
10) Overall, life's good. Read "The Celestine Prophecy"; it's great.
 
 
Current Mood: confused
 
 
Veganiz
18 July 2008 @ 11:17 pm
Casualty

When you can't see what's coming
from around that nearby bend,
don't step out into question marks
that could lead to dead ends.

You can't make snap decisions
over things that you don't know.
The warning signs and checklists
are put up just for show.

In the real world there's no safety net.
and if you don't think twice,
sirens flashing, "Casualty" -
you'll lose one of your lives.

Take it slow and trust the map
that you hold inside.
This 'real' world of dangers
is just another lie.


Another Show

They say I cannot know you,
they see just another show
but I know I've met you
and I can't let you go.

I've got to find a way
to see the sparkle stay.
I can't let you fade
to gray.

They think I do not know you
but we know the truth.
I have to walk this path because
there's too much here to lose.

I want to comfort you,
take your hand and not let go.
They say you cannot know me,
but this isn't just a show.

I've been inside your mind.
I've roamed your soul.
I cannot just ignore your presence
or my fascination that you stole.

Look into my eyes.
Tell me that you see..
We really know each other
and that you were meant for me.
 
 
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Current Mood: awake
 
 
Veganiz
03 July 2008 @ 01:06 pm
Do you believe? Yes
Ever had any experiences? Seen/heard/felt? See below.
Been anywhere 'haunted'? Nowhere extremely haunted.
Know others who have had experiences? Yep.
If you don't believe, and you saw a ghost,
would you change your mind?
n/a
If you do believe, do you think
you are in any way 'psychic'?
Yes, I see ghosts
but I also believe I'm an empath as well as a healer.
I know, it sounds crazy but I've had more than my fair
share of c-razy experiences. Maybe I should make
more pages on my site.



**********
My Experiences
(copied from a page from my site, as well as some
that I forget to add, at the bottom)

Sleepover Ghost: It was a week before Halloween and my cousin, who lives down the road, was having a sleepover.It was the first month we'd been in (a new) school and she'd invited a few people over, not for Halloween but just to have fun like a normal sleepover. Went over and we were all just pigging out on junk food, messing around when without knowing why I said, "There's a ghost." They all looked at me like I was an idiot and told me to shut up, laughing. This time, I felt it so I said, "No, really, there's a ghost and it's related to one of us." Most of them were stunned, and one asked how I knew. "I don't know," I said, "I just do." I saw a man standing in front of me and described his position, his clothes (leathers), his hair, his motorbike helmet that he held and one of the girls was going pale. We asked Amy if she was okay and she said, "That's my uncle. He died in a motorcycle accident, he always said he would come back and give me a sign." We all got creeped out and sort of ignored. Later on, I found out he had lived almost *exactly* opposite me.

Irish Ghosts: In Ireland, my aunt, uncle and I stayed with my aunt's friends, Brendan and Mary. I didn't really know them that well and had never met them before because they're in Ireland! They are at least over 40, though I don't know their exact ages. Anyway, one day, about 10 of us were relaxing in their living room and everybody was in some sort of conversation. Then the person I was talking to turned to talk to someone else, and everyone was busy so I wasn't talking to anyone. Literally about 10 seconds later, I saw a tall, old-ish man walking 'round and 'round the centre table. I looked around but everyone was busy, so I just watched him. Then there was a gap in the conversations and Mary and I were the only people not talking, so I said..."Mary, I can see a tall man walking around this table." She asked me to describe him so I did, and she said, "I think that's my dad." I saw him walk over to her and hold his hand out in the gentlemanly fashion as if asking for a dance but thought this was so random I must've made it up. I saw him, then, standing with a woman shorter than him but taller than me, and with a small, young girl. He was carrying a photo of a baby in pink, and a bouquet of pink flowers. They were standing in some kind of field, it looked to me like a farm or grainfield. I told her everything I saw and she said to me, "That might be my mum, and I had two younger sisters who died. I grew up on a farm." We were both quite amazed. After she said that, he kept holding his hand out in that way so I told her, and she said that her and her husband had started taking dance classes and everyone said she was really good and should carry on but she had been uncertain.


Don't-Like-Flowers Ghost: Ok, so me and my friend were talking over the phone and she told me a little ghost girl kept following her, and at that moment I saw the girl, and we both described her doing the same thing. then, I saw a random guy and told my friend that even though I was seeing him, he had a message for her. I said that he loved her (because he told me to) and she saw him. We both saw him
pull out flowers for her and he started laughing. He threw them away, grinned and brought out a box of chocolates. I told her what I saw and she said, "Well you know I don't like flowers" but I never knew that! I was like whoa. Anyway, after a while of some past-lifey memories and stuff, he told me I should become a medium. (Not that I've really considered this properly.)

German Ghost: So, anyway, few minutes later, after he left, I see an old soldier man walk up to me. I had a feeling he was German, even though he looked English and just.. 'normal' (LOL ghosts).
Bear in mind I'm just in the house, near the desk, working /revising. He walked up to me and smiled, standing there. I just sort of was like "Erm, okay, feel free to stand around." Then I heard a name in my head, and no matter how I try now, I can't remember it now :/. But yeah, sounded like a normal name and the last name was Crab but for some reason,I thought it was spelt with a K like Krabbe. Which is odd. So, I decided to search the name online and there were tons of responses but with "-the first name- Smith and Eve Krabbe" or something, so I tried image search. I think it was Thomas Krabbe :/. Anyway, the first picture came up with a soldier, so I clicked it and it let me to a page about all these German people and how one guy, TK, had played music and loved it and was a soldier or something. At this point,
he turned to me and said "I just wanted to be remembered", smiled and vanished. I was like, I'm really happy that I could help him and LOL for Google being a rememberance. I hardly ever feel sad with ghosts ^_^.

Bustop Grandma: Ok, so I just remembered another one. My grandma passed away around November a year and a half ago. Although she was gone, I felt her presence randomly. Nothing emotional or anything, I didn't even miss her much after the first week - and most of that was just pain
for all the people left behind who were crying and hurting. So anyway, after about...at least
7 months, me and my cousin were texting and she said she had been missing our gran... I told
her that recently I couldn't stop thinking about her, even getting sad. (Randomly, after months.
It was weird :/) and so we met up and went to the local store, got icecream, sat on a pavement
and eat it, talking about her. I said I kept seeing her running around and saying she wanted icecream
and then Lauren said she'd seen her do the same thing. So we sat and watched her. She came
over and started talking to us, and we both heard her in English even though her English was very limited
(I spoke only basic Gujarati and my cousin spoke only English). So, I walked to the local
shopping centre's bus stop with Lauren, still talking to our gran, and waited for the bus. As we stood
there, I said "I feel like she's saying something to you but not in English even though she keeps
speaking in English to us." Lauren said "I know." Then she said somehting to Lauren which I
didn't hear and I said, "What was it?" Lauren said she didn't know how to describe the word but it started with a P. I was like HUH? P word in Gujarati? I was at a loss until she said it had a p and a y and maybe an r. So I said, "Pyar?" and she said "That's exactly how she said it!" - Pyar means love,
but we also use the words Prem or Dil. So I was like whoa! It was great to
know she was around and that she loves us :).

Some I forgot to put on my page
My grandma: Before my grandma died, she was ill with cancer and was in a hospice. I never
knew the full extent of her illness because nobody had told me (seems preposterous but I found out
some of my other young cousins didn't know, the family hadn't wanted to worry us). So, I just thought
she was ill but not extremely ill. I figured that since she was quite old (84) then it was probably just something small. So, once when we were at her house, about 4 days before she died, me and one of my aunts saw something in front of a photo of her. I saw her and my grandad (who had already passed away) and remarked about this to my family - but only that I could see my grandad, when my aunt said she could see him too. My aunt took me aside a few minutes later and told me she'd seen my gran too and it seemed like she might pass soon. I told her I'd seen her but didn't want to worry the family - and that my grandad had said "She'll be coming soon" which made it sound like she would die soon, although I thought she wasn't very ill anyway. (She'd been getting better for weeks.) My gran was slightly religious (Jainism) and wanted two small things read over and over if she died. I got given them on Sunday and decided they should be photocopied so we could all read them together. I was going to take them to school but I forgot them. I got to school and during the day felt really anxious that I hadn't got the pieces of paper, I almost cried. I thought I was being stupid and could photocopy them the day after but I was still nervous and upset. I found out, on my way home, that she had passed away.

Anyway, this post is way too long so I'll stop here,
but as a reminder to myself, I need to also put on my
webpage about the victorian ghost my sister saw (she didn't believe!), the
passport eyes, my sister's school book and my science GCSE revision ghost.
Oh and other weird non-ghost experiences.

Sorry, must've taken a while to read it all
and I won't mind if you didn't.
Niz xxx
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: awake
 
 
Veganiz
27 June 2008 @ 12:35 pm
(Note: To read Salazar or Honeydukes
Extended Advertisement Jingle -wizard rock
songs- then please go to the LJ entry below, thanks)

New random WRock song:

Voldie's Secret


Voldemort's got a secret supply of
pantyhose.
He's got some funky ones with the
Dark Mark on.
He's worn some three days in a row,
you don't want those,
they're the ones he likes when he's got
a har....rock on!

Voldemort... don't get your knickers
in a twist...
'Cause we revel in your
undergarment bliss

Voldy likes to shop
at Ann Summers,
can't get to Victoria's Secret,
bummer...

Voldemort has a secret supply
of pantyhose,
he wears them underneath... his robes,
Stripy, lacy, frilly and even some
that glow...
Voldie's................pantyhose.

Voldemort... don't get your knickers
in a twist...
'Cause we revel in your
undergarment bliss

He doesn't like leather
but he sees himself in lace
Once got caught by Lucius Malfoy,
you should've seen his face

He said Voldemort!
You're wearing lace undies...
So Voldy...turned away...
But Lucius...
Had fetish sundays...
so together... they turned gay.

Voldemort's got a secret supply of
pantyhose.
He likes to wear them at Death Eater
meetings.
If they follow his orders, like they're supposed,
to then they can get... some special beatings.

Voldemort...don't cower in shame...
Voldemort, get some extra fame...
You'll be in the Daily Prophet
so you....might as well profit
'cause you have surely got it...
so flaunt it.

Voldy never wears his boxers
except when stalked by wizard rockers.
Voldy's in his birthday suit...
And doesn't he look cute?

Voldemort's got a secret supply of
pantyhose.
They're covered in serpents oh-so-green.
Voldemort and his secret supply of
pantyhose
are the perfect world-domination team...

Voldemort... don't get your knickers
in a twist...
'Cause we revel in your
undergarment bliss

Does he regret the Dark Side that
he chose?
No because he has his
secret supply of...
secret supply of...
secret supply of...
Evil pantyhose.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: humming (me)
 
 
Veganiz
Ok, first off: I can't sing.
Second: I'm feeling creative.


I recorded a Wizard rock song, called Salazar:
link = http://veganiz.com/NizWRock_Salazar.mp3

And one of poems I recorded as a song, called Tonight
since that's how it came to me O_o:
link = http://veganiz.com/niz-poem-tonight.mp3

Ages ago I wrote a Honeydukes Extended Advertisement Jingle...
lyrics here: http://www.veganiz.com/poetry/honeydukes_eaj.htm
MP3 (spoken) here: http://veganiz.com/NizWRock_Honeydukesadjingle.mp3

I also wrote, in French, Mon Grand Poulet Noir.
Lyrics & translation: http://www.veganiz.com/poetry/mongrandpn.htm
MP3 (poken) here: http://veganiz.com/Niz-poem-granpouletnoir.mp3

Lyrics below.
Niz xxx


Salazar Lyrics

Salazar Slytherin,
He won't let mudbloods in.
If it's Dark Arts, he always wins.
He's Salazar Slytherin.

Salazar Slytherin, Salazar.
Salazar Slytherin, Slytherin.
Salazar Slytherin, Salazar.
Salazar Slytherin, Slytherin, Slytherin.

All the girls, they fancy him.
'Cause he is powerful Salazar Slytherin.
He is going to be king.
'Cause he's head of Slytherin.

He speaks to snakes, oh my-y-y.
He bakes cakes,
I bet you didn't know...
Let's go.

Salazar Slytherin,
He won't let mudbloods in.
If it's Dark Arts, he always wins.
He's Salazar Slytherin.

Salazar Slytherin, Salazar.
Salazar Slytherin, Slytherin.
Salazar Slytherin, Salazar.
Salazar Slytherin, Slytherin, Slytherin.

He's a master wizard in a duel.
His perfect eyes, they gleam like jewels.

Salazar is such a player
and Godric Gryffindor's a hater.
Go Salazar!

Salazar Slytherin,
He won't let mudbloods in.
If it's Dark Arts, he always wins.
He's Salazar Slytherin.

Salazar Slytherin, Salazar.
Salazar Slytherin, Slytherin.
Salazar Slytherin, Salazar.
Salazar Slytherin, Slytherin, Slytherin,
Slytherin, Slytherin...

Shake that snake!


Tonight (Poem) Lyrics

I run my hand across
your lips, one more time
and I try to outrun the apocalypse
'cause I don't want to die.

I can't accept that it's over
when there is so much more to say.
I need to tell you how I feel,
I need one more day.

Remember, how clear our vision was.
Remember, our promises of love.

I lie back down and close
my eyes, one more time.
Drift into a world of goodbyes
but I don't want to die.

I don't know why it's ending.
We didn't really begin.
Seeing the world distraught and frail,
it's time to let me in.

Remember, we once had hopes and dreams.
Forget, forget the sound of all these screams.

I stand up now and take
your hand, one more time.
They say love is the strongest bond
and we're not going to die.

Although it might look dismal,
we hold onto the light.
We only need each other...
tonight.



p.s. Omg, the itemid (//blognumber)
for this blog is 11111.
That's a good sign :D. <3
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: TH
 
 
Veganiz
18 June 2008 @ 12:17 am
Not on my site yet (dolls)

[title quote from the Simpsons episode where Homer is
making his own beer in bathtubs and pretending he has gas
when they explode but Marge realises :D.]


Doll dump. Lol. I haven't dolled in ages and now? *mwahahah*
In order of creation.


~ For Sanura's birthday. Not my best but looks
surprisingly like how she used to. Base by Mariiii.de


~Random, to make a corset. I have one in the same colours, diff style.
I made it, somehow, about Tokio Hotel :). Hair was rushed. Love tag "483",
reference to TH's album "Zimmer 483" (Room 483) base by Md


base by Fainelloth for the Dres Up Darla challenge,
number 2. I quite like it. Mixed patterns and such from two items. It's ok.
Couldn't do the shoes, I suck at shoes, so I left them out but kept laces.


NOT Adoptable from LJ. Base by MeD. I figured time for me to do it.
LOL I put in a cake with the TH logo on it <3. And a candle. Maybe I should sell  pixel cakes?
Liking the background, which I never normally bother to make.


Base by Fainelloth again. A variation of my Dress
Up Darla Challenge #2 entry as a sample doll for a "blindfold" contest I will
soon be holding... more details soon :). New hair 'cause the old didn't go well.


Bases by Chocotini <3
Random thing for Nimue since I was in the mood to doll.
And wow, I didn't know I could sort of do beards ^_^. Hope she likes it.

That's all for now, folks :D.
<3
Niz xxx


Random


  • I hate jobseeking & being nagged.
  • I add '-face', '-faced' or '-ness' onto random words.
  • I hate when something pisses the hell out of annoys you but it is totally irrational and you know it.
  • I love my 'jaguar'. Spirit guides for the win!
  • Duracell...=cool. Only the code-word though, not the thing because Proctor & Gamble suck.
  • Viva! is cool.
  • Results day is far away. Last year's was ok. Hope I get a photo in the paper again.
  • I should REALLY be asleep.
  • Tomorrow = Japanese sweet stuff.
  • Thursday = dressing up as my chara Japanese RP Kiseki <3 -will prolly wear JSF
  • My (old) school looks like a prison.
  • Bill Kaulitz is ultra, ultra hot and his energy is awesome. Can't wait to meet him.
  • I'm glad I've left school yet I randomly return.
  • Stupid jobmarket and programs. Sigh.
  • Educo & Educo Gym ~ best things in life, seriously Teach you more than all those shabby life books. Tony Quinn is really amazing.
  • I've printed an incorrect phone-number on my CVs, oh gods.
  • Oh mein DD in Himmel.
  • Stupid not being around for QOTD.
  • I slammed my little finger in a door today...STUPID job-seeking.
  • Today I was forced to lie. Grr. Horrible.
  • I keep seeing triple numbers, 23s and other signs everywhere...like I was singing "durch den Monsun" and stopped, looked up and was outside shop: Monsoon.
  • BULLET POINTS. That's odd.
  • Languages FTW.
  • I like lists.
  • Sleeep.
  • Potter puppet pals - bother!
  • Omg finally read Eclipse, can't wait for Breaking Dawn.
  • On the subject, I'm on Team Edward & Team Jacob (or rather Team Hope-it-turns-out-well).
  • Frank Sinatra - cool. Double CD for 99p, bargain.
  • Camden Market - ultra-amazing-faced. Srsly.
  • Tokio Hotel is LOVE. Really. TH ~ Bahnbrechende.
  • Speaking of Bahnbrechende, my friend Carina überpwns.
  • I love my 11:11 pic. The lyrics are from Konstantine by Something Corporate.
  • I think I annoyed my sister today.
  • I ate pizza today (home-made) and it was yummy.
  • I have a 'new' phone. It's the same as my best friend's, bar the colour. (mine: black / hers: orange-red)
  • SOMEBODY PLEASE throw Bill Kaulitz at me on Facebook, "Hug Me" application. PLEASE. <3
  • Paris, eh?

...Goodnight then!
Niz xxx
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: *glares*
Current Music: Tokio Hotel & Frank Sinatra
 
 
Veganiz
08 June 2008 @ 03:24 am
Ohh it's 3:23 am (there's that number 23 again!) and I'm awake,
not good hehe.

Anyway, one new poem, several new dolls (veganiz.com)
and I'm bored.

I wrote a tiny bit of a German poem the other day...
well two lines.
"Er ist definitiv allein,
es ist tag hundert-eins" (not sure if it's totally correct but meh*shrug*)
I got the idea that war is breaking out on Earth
and this guy leaves his girlfriend, sad, to go to the
sun to wait till the war is over.
He reaches the sun and he sees the war.
After it's over, it's been 101 days and he
goes back to Earth. His girlfriend is gone,
all the people are gone, there's nothing.
And yep, that's it. Weird, I know. I even did
a mini explanation in German O_o. Haha.

I need to use my Skyblog more often.
Speaking of that, I've been talking to
a whole load more French people so that's pretty good :D.

My 18th birthday was on Friday and it was really good,
had the most delicious vegan chocolate cake ever :D.
Got some nice gifts and gorgeous cards, and about
a gazillion Facebook posts! How mad :D.

It was 3:33 am just now, hehe triple numbers ^_^.

~I'm going to London next weekend,
after my last exam (Friday) to go shopping.
I dislike shopping usually but since I'll
have more money, it'll be my kind of clothes and stuff
and we'll be eating at 3 vege/vegany restaurants,
it should be fab!

I'm on DD so much, I have 500 posts on there
already, go me :P. Lol. Love the new shoutbox
that Lorr installed, and I've been adding loads
to Darla's photobucket account ^_^. *pleased*

I have random song lines stuck in my head;
"I'm drunk off your kiss" from New Found Glory's
song 'My Friends Over You' and then "Du brichst
die Kälte wenn du sprichst" from Heilig by Tokio
Hotel. (I seem to be going mad about them recently.
It's so weird, I keep having *random* dreams and
last night, I felt more energy than ever before and
keep seeing all this stuff....anyway lol. Off-topic!)
So, yeah, random song-lines.

I need to go visit my baby cousin sometime,
he's ever so cute. Awww. And I went to the cinema
yesterday and watched a thought-provoking movie,
Gone Baby Gone. It was pretty good.
Can't wait to see more (and some horrors <3)
after my exams. I will be at the cinema like
a film-whore hahaha.

Saw Lorry & Tanya the other day, I love
being with them, it's so much fun. We all
had a long chat and just messed around.
LOL it was so funny hearing Teej blow
balloons up. *cracks up laughing* Way too funny.

I got my haircut on Monday, it's a lot shorter
but it's nice and looks pretty when I wear my
hotpink/black hairband although it's so loose
that it falls out after 5 mins. *disappointed*
in other news, my nails are alternating
hotpink and black, they look so awesome.
Lol they are shmexy like Clayton,
who Carina sent to see me. Yum.
Hehe.

Ok, enough rambling about stuff.
I'll post my latest poem below
-beware, it's simple and rhythmic
and reminds me of many of my first few
poems...and it uses random American vocabulary-.

Niz xxx
p.s. haha I forgot I posted the poem already.
It's in the entry below
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: je réflechis
Current Music: none playing, but in my head lol
 
 
Veganiz
29 May 2008 @ 11:53 pm
Driven

I'm driving into
the far away night,
away from the city
so false and so bright.

I'm driving to find
what I thought I had lost.
I'm picking up baggage
but what is the cost?

I stop at the station,
robotically pay.
I need fuel to escape,
to last until day.

I'm driving on the highway,
wheels turning and free.
I'm driving to find
that lost piece of me.

Last year I went out,
filled with sadness and hate.
I left all my baggage
on the interstate.

I'm driving to find it,
I'm driving for you.
Where have I left it?
I have not a clue.

I drive past motels,
past 'hikers and bars.
In my mind they're missing,
just me and the stars.

The moon hangs by my dashboard,
so shiny and bright.
I'm trying to find
a similar light.

The engine is running,
the sound is quite rough.
I question my actions
and know I can't bluff.

I stop every now
and then just to find,
a little fresh air
and some peace of mind.

Get back in the car,
there's further to go.
I'll cross all those limits.
I'll break them, I know.

I'm driving again,
hunched in the front seat.
I'm always observing
but there is no cheat.

I must drive down this road
for years to come.
Until, without baggage,
I come undone.

I'm driving in storms,
I'm carrying my home.
Without you, my baggage,
I'm driving alone.




***
I sound American.
Lol. Niz xxx
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: -
 
 
Veganiz
07 May 2008 @ 12:55 pm
I am an idiot :D.

Yep.

>_<


I did my coursework, my work is finished!
I have an exam tomorrow.


And I am an idiot. X_x


Niz xxx
 
 
Current Mood: uncomfortable
 
 
 
 

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